My name is Caroline. My younger brother Scott & I are seeking the love and compassion from the community to finally have our family together.
Please allow me to explain:
This is me & my brother
we haven't seen each other in 10 years.
We used to. We used to be very close. Our children are similar in age and we thought they'd grow up together like any other normal family. But that's not what happened.
A little history so you'll understand.
Our mother was or is, a toxic person. I'm sure she did the best she could, with what she knew. That didn't make it any easier.
As we grew older there were boyfriends and husbands but none stayed. I can't really blame them. She had a frightening temper. I recall sitting on my bed with my hands under my legs waiting for my mother to come in. I was in trouble. My stomache would hurt, my heart would pound, absolutely terrified of what would happen when she came in. Most often she came in with a belt in her hand. I was most grateful when she didn't have me drop the bottom half of my clothes for the whipping.
The name calling she did to us was mean, vulgar, outright insanity.
She's thrown hammers, dishes, pots of hot food at us.
This is how we were raised. It is very painful reflecting.
I'm trying to show you our little world because right now we need you.
As life moved forward we grew up, each of us making the best out of life with what we were dealt. Honestly, we didn't have a good template, and I'm not certain we knew what we were really doing. I think we just knew we did not want to be like her, and I'm certain we believed as she got older she would calm down.
That did not happen.
2006 - We are in Indiana, we (as in my brother & I) have families of our own & they are growing with each other. That is the foundation of our tiny family. My brother & I. We do not have anyone else other than our spouses plus children.
This is my son, Daniel and Scotts daughter Trinity.
This is my son Johnathon & Scotts son Blaze
This is our hope for our bloodline. To honor & love our children in the healthiest way possible.
It all came to an abrupt halt, rapidly.
See, Trinity's mother passed away very young. Killed in a car wreck. And my marriage ended badly. Scott and I decided to break away from the family without even telling each other. We thought we were doing what was best for our children. Scott, his spouse Tasha plus their children moved away. It wasn't long after I found out I had cancer. I tried to find my brother, but he did not intend on being found at that time.
I made it through the Cancer battle as a single mother and have rebuilt my life again.
During the struggle to live, I realized I needed to find life in order to truly LIVE. I had to get away.
I uprooted my boys and drove clear to North Carolina. See, I always wanted to see the ocean and when the doctors told me they couldn't find any more evidence of cancer I KNEW that was my chance at life. I've made many regrettable decisions in life in the past. Here I was, told I'm going to be okay. I'm going to live, not die.
I needed to go more than anything. Two years of inner healing and we moved to settle in florida.
Here we are. Through the years, I've tried to find my brother. We we're so very close at one point. I couldn't find him. I resolved into knowing its just going to be me and my 2 boys. That is really a saddening feeling. No family get togethers, no Christmas dinners, no cousins or aunts or uncles. I felt like a failure. Trust that my boys are healthy, happy straight A students! I nourish their mind and heart. I've also married and got a bonus son. But, it's still just us. The 5 of us. I feel empty alot.
As for Scott. It's just the 6 of them. Same pathway, just a different place.
He found me on Instagram a couple weeks ago!
He's been looking for years for me, but I didn't intend on being found for a while at that time.
We have tried saving & budgeting everything. Truth is, money is hard for us raising our families by ourselves. I've just begun my real estate sales career. It hasn't blossomed yet.
Our oldest children are 14 now, their childhood almost over. Please help us reunite them! Scotts tiny family is in Indiana, mine in florida. Please help us give them family memories of an aunt & uncle. Of cousins. Family!
These are current photos
Daniel & Trinity
And
Johnathon & Blaze
And this is all we have. This is what it will look like bringing all of us together:
Thank you
Even sharing this will get the word out.
God bless you
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