Single parent.

~ I work really hard raising my boys. My goal has always been to bring up good, strong, moral, spiritual men into the world. Not lil players, not wandering bums, but good, very good men. I had my reading today via JoLynne Valerie we discussed my business ventures, we discussed my change in romantic scenery, we discussed beautiful angels. And its all relevant, all very important to me, however, I've been a single mom for a long time. I have been all alone for a long time. Very alone. My boys do not have the cousins to play with, the aunts to babysit and the uncles to rough house. Not the gramma baking pie, or chasing em with a switch (kidding, but you get it) Its been only me, for the greater part of 8 years. One boy is 8, one is 10 ~ so you see where I am. I have worried about how they are growing up, what kind of men they will be. Praying I have been giving them all moral codes they need for a good life. My one son, he has been my biggest rock, my biggest support through many times. And when I told him we were going to build a business selling jewelry, he was all in! We began in a different state, I created a small little supply of earrings, necklaces and bracelets. I then placed them in baskets. One day, the money ran dry. The kids needed things ~ and I had no way to get the stuff. My eye caught one of the baskets. I said, well ... if anything, I can try to sell this. I told the boys we were going on vacation soon, we needed to earn money. We gathered up our little baskets, and off walking we went. It was so very hard. It was emotionally hard, scary hard, and just plain new fear. But, when your kids are hungry ~ you have got to mommie up. My one son, he gave me courage, he gave me inspiration. He was the greatest ~ most confident lil business man. We spent two hours in our little town, going door to door with our little baskets. I felt awkward, on the spot, very nervous. My boy, he took my hand and said ~ Come on mom we've got some jewelry to sell! That moment. I gathered my courage, stuffed away fear and pride ~ and we steadily sold nearly everything we had over the next few days. The first day, we took our little earnings over to the ice cream store, bought a soda and some ice cream, hot dogs for the kids. This day, is what finally set into motion the building of a business. The filling of so many dreams. And my son, who motivated me, the son who inspired and worked and watched. Well, he is learning big things. He is learning about building a business from scratch ~ from the ground up. We are tightening our bond daily, and this little boy is going to grow up into the most beautiful man. And this is what makes it all worth it. All worthwhile. The little dark haired boy, who grows into the most amazing man.

Angel Reading 03/07/2015

We always begin with a blessing, a prayer, and opening to these readings. I like that. I like bringing about that certain feeling, that certain individual space. My life has changed dramatically this past year. And I am telling you, it is going to continue to change, continue to grow. I am making something of this life. I am so thankful for people like Jolynne, who open up to a higher life, who share insight, info and guidance so openly. Its not free, no, but it is not the thousands of dollars that other people charge. Those of us who have been in the lower pits of life could of never changed our lives at that cost. No, this is do-able. Okay, with that said, let's dive in to what this reading was all about: My Angel has a friend with her today, my Angel has been by my side for such a long time. I absolutely am thankful for her, I have so much love and appreciation for her. Anyway, her friend Angel is of a different rank, not that one is better than another, but it helps put things into perspective with people, to understand job positions and titles. This new Angel on the scene is about to shake things up for me. She says 2015 is literally my champagne year. LITERALLY. So, what is the first thought there? Wine bottles, champagne bottles, wine glasses. I am hearing that, and I like what it sounds like. But what does it mean? Continuing on, Jolynne states that SO MUCH is going to happen to me, (in a good way) that I am going to request an emergency reading, a life coaching session with her, so many decisions I am going to be making and I ask for higher, positive direction. OH I REALLY LIKE THE SOUND OF THAT. There is something cool about this angel, she wears stars on her head, pointing to the sky going from star to star to star to star. This was different. Jolynne asked for clarification from her. Oh the beauty of it. What I gather is its like this, one happening in my life is going to be like "stardom" to me, amazing, awesome. And am going to move onward each to a new awesomeness, each to another stardom. This is beautiful. Like popcorn she says. You wait, you wait and wait. slowly heated one thing POPS and then another POPS and then before you know it, you got corn popping in a jiffy bag balloon. Its all coming atcha! The thought about this is, I know I will feel awesome, and a bit overwhelmed by it, and go running immediately to Jolynne to make some good, solid, sound decisions. I thank you Angels for your work in my life. I so thank you. She sees me toasting, literally with champagne. This theme is CHAMPAGNE. So, I am holding onto that. I am like ... whoa! Let's rock this! I was given some info regarding my next business adventures that I decided to keep *hush*hush* for now. It is something that I am choosing to let simmer awhile, all the while working out the details. My romantic life has shifted as well, I am okay with that though. My original mr. amazing has been removed from the options. It almost happened you know. I felt it, I knew it, but... it has changed. He isn't where he could be, he isn't stable as he could be, he isn't doing "the work" ... it is a bittersweet happening. Knowing you almost had it. The angels say they couldn't allow that in my life. Couldn't put me in that. I am thankful to them. Thankful for looking out, and sending in someone different. someone more suited. A spiritual man at that :) My dad isn't here any more either. I am okay with that as well. He is in a whole 'nother place, WITH his DAD. I can understand. I can relate. I am happy for him. See, I understand, over there is much different than it is here. and over there is beautiful, is the utopia I always dream of. I know one day, it will be my dad coming to escort me there. Until that time, I have a beautiful full life to lead here. My up coming Mr. Amazing is fitting the bill to exactly what I have asked for. He is a little thick, he has some nice trimmed facial hair, he is a blue jean and work boots kinda guy. His children are grown, he has been previously married and now a bit skittish to marry again. He carries a spiritual air/ vibe around him. We will first see each other (......) that my readers, is personal. I want to keep that at a distance, so when I do see him. When I do meet him, I will be able to share THEN. He is a traditional, kind of man... a man that will one day bring me a promise ring, who will one day have the discussion of more than any promise ring, of a beautiful dress, a beautiful life, the romantic person I am, cuz I need that. I have been holding out for that. I am me ~ a different life, a different person, different hopes, dreams and desires. Our rainbow ending will come. I am super excited. Super excited for rainbow endings, champagne glasses, beautiful boys that I have, my beautiful daughters .... I have big big big dreams, big hopes, big goals. and they are coming, all of them are certainly coming. And I am running with it! Many thanks to you that read this, to Jolynne for the readings, and most of all for the Angels in our lives, fulfilling hopes, dreams and goals. Thank you God ever so much. Have a beautiful day everyone!

Okayness.

I am in a place of okayness lately. See last week, specifically just this weekend, my electric was going to be disconnected. Usually I get close, and then panic when I can't foresee a way out. But this time, I did something different. I knew I had applied for assistance with my utilities, but it hadn't come in yet. So I decided first and foremost, I was NOT going to panic. I sought peace about it, inner peace. I didn't want the stress that emotions bring. I prayed about it as well. I decided I would attempt payment arrangements, asking to make the payment the following friday. With confidence, I placed my call. I explained I was calling to ask for arrangements on my service, that I was waiting for assistance with my bill ~ and that I just couldn't pay for another full week, and PLEASE don't shut me off. The lady then transferred me to another lady, where I went through the whole explanation once again. She says, let me look at your account. She comes back on the line and says, I see on the 2nd we received a credit for $300 ~ with a balance of one hundred and .... her voice faded off as I got all kinds of excited! I says OMGOSH! And she continued saying, so we do not need to schedule any payment arrangements with you at this time. She giggled from hearing my excitement. It feels good to be okay. Letting go of stress, worry, depression. It feels so good, and even better when there is a positive outcome. I know for certain, that ordinary things aren't the answer. Things come at just the right time, just when we need them. I know God has a hand in that, and those beautiful, serving awesome life changing Angels. Which begins my next post, on my most recent Angel reading ......